Dumbass!!!!

Dumbass!!!!
Possibly the dumbest kid i know...volia, Ethan Cook!!! Him and another kid broke into my house, and put suran wrap on random kitchen appliances in my house, to bad these geniouses took pictures of themselves doing it on my camera...basically what they did=Trespassing+ Vandalism+Theft+Skipping school= 50,000 dollar fine, and 2 years in a juvenile's center!!! Way to go dumbass!
# Posted on Wednesday, 14 May 2008 at 11:50 PM

Please, Please don't leave me.

Please, Please don't leave me.
You can't wait to get back home
But what about the home right here in my heart
You're leaving me so carelessly
You wrote it down on my calendar
All the things you'll do and when you'll go
And I was trying so hard not to show
That I didn't really care, all that mattered was that you're leaving
It was all I could do not to break down
But you seemed so happy so care free
It's like you don't even consider who you're leaving
Behind and I wonder if it's even crossed your mind
How much I love you and that when you leave
You will be breaking my heart.

You fly away on that jet plane
Unaware of the love I lost and my pain
I think I might go insane
Because you are leaving me far from the same
I've learned to love and to understand
I've learned about life in a far off land
You opened my eyes and now the world
Is so, so, so big and I realize
It's so easy to lose someone in a place like this
Please don't lose me

Please, please don't lose me
Don't forget me
Go have your fun but when it's done
Will you think of me?
You're going so, so far out of my reach
Gone, gone to a far away beach
And I, can't follow this time

But the beauty is this time you see
I will keep some of you here with me
But please, please take a piece of me
This is all I've got and it's all I want
Is for you to take this piece of me and

Please, please don't lose me
Don't forget me
Go have your fun but when it's done
Will you think of me?
You're going so, so far out of my reach
Gone, gone to a far away place
And this time I can't see your face.
# Posted on Wednesday, 16 April 2008 at 2:25 AM

Bad day.

Today...was a bad day, i hate people, they are so stupid, and after about 3rd period, i couldn't take it, so i locked myself in a room and played my guitar. it was wonderful. all the world went away, i was at peace, just me and my music, and now i know, thats all i need.
# Posted on Tuesday, 01 April 2008 at 2:31 AM

Je T'aime

Je T'aime
I had mere months to know you well
And of course in love I fell
When you leave ill wish you well
But my heart will be in living hell

Beauty is as beauty does
Beauty is exactly what she was
She was beauty and she was more
Something I needed at my core
Beauty is power
Beauty is might
Its the brightest light
Or the dead of night
What ever it is she did it right
She showed me all she was
Simply because I was there and she was too
One walk one cold autumn afternoon

We made our way to Vagabond
I sat with you out on the lawn
We talked about your home
A place of style of class
We sat on the bench and watched the street
In Paris one day we will meet
Paris I long to go
But most of all I want to know
I want to see to be with you
And one day that's what I will do

Je t'aime my favorite phrase
When I was with her I was in a daze
You sent me into a craze
Speaking to myself in French just to ease the pain
Wishing not to speak these words in vain
Je t'aime I love you Je t'aime I sang
Everywhere I see your name

If I knew id feel like this every time a loved one left
If id known all those times I wept
But in my heart I kept
A place for you and I'll keep it true
There's only one thing I need to say to you
Je t'aime I love you je t'aime its true
I save those words just for you


Where was I on New Years Eve
With her and I believe
That with every passing year
I will hold her near
I will learn to like champagne
Drink to her and breathe her name
Another night I will never hold the same

When I say bisous
And finally wave good bye to you
I will know I really knew
But I still don't know what ill do
I live in fear of that day
But I know it will be ok
As long as I get to say
Je t'aime, my friend, I love you.
# Posted on Saturday, 29 March 2008 at 4:36 PM
Edited on Monday, 07 April 2008 at 1:17 AM

Got to get out.

I'm about to kill you
Cause I'm so sick of listening
To your bitching bout how you so fucking sick of living
Well your suicides gonna kill me first
The therapist don't know who's got it worse
Your voice is like a curse
I'm about to burst
If I have to hear one more time about how your done
God damn it woman buy that gun
But what no one knows is ill be the one
To take that gun and use it
I'll be the one ta go through whit it
And stick it to my brain
I can't stand one more minute of your self inflicted pain
It permeates and poisons everything and everyone
Like smoke it gets stuck inside my lungs
With every breath you take
You make this air so toxic
It wont be long before I break
I've heard of people killing themselves cause of their own problems
Shoot them selves to solve em and make things well
But I think ill be the first to shoot myself for someone else's self inflicted
Pain addicted, fucking sickened hell
I'm so sick of hearing bout your childhood
Made to relive it all cause your parents weren't any good
Fuck if I could change it don't you think I would
But fuck you can't change it either
But theirs a virus stuck in you
It burns like a fever
But it every time
It goes deeper
This ones a fucking child eater

I'm sorry for the way that gramps beat her
And for the way the rest of the family treats her
But if you force me to listen
Force me to envision one more time
How fucked up you are inside
My life is hard enough without having to feel every ounce of pain you ever had
Fucking let fucking go
Ever fucker knows you can't keep every fucking thing locked up inside
Cause of your fucking pride wont even ask for fucking help
Well I cant fucking help you now and you wont even fucking help yourself
You fucking like being this way or something cause you don't do nothing
You just wallow in your pain
I have got to drown you out and get out before I check out.
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# Posted on Wednesday, 26 March 2008 at 10:44 PM

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